Time to vent

So today I was in a alliance of 8 people to do abyssea NMs for AF seals but after a couple minax bugard kills we went after the spider, should have been fine but something got to me.

Now i'm not good at venting on FFXI largely due to the limited writing space, I tried but it didn't help so I will explode here.

Basically i'm getting bombarded with orders for silena, erase, haste, this NM can draw you in and slow you, I say he can do it...he spams it, so by about the 5th time of doing it I understand that you're gonna need erase and haste afterwards.

The problem here is he can also silence and I forgot to re-stock on echo drops so I ran out quickly, bitch at me if you will but the NIN didn't have echo drops, the brd/whm didn't have echo drops, so if you don't bring them do you have right to bitch at me for not bringing them?

Anyway this is what got to me, it's not all that was said but with no chat filters, stuff disappears fast:


Now most of the people in that alliance were people from Prestige who i've started doing stuff with so maybe what I did next was ill advised but I just left, it was a case of either stay there, do nothing because i'm silenced and potentially shout my head off at them or leave and calm down, I chose the latter.

So yes, I fucked up, I should have had echo drops and I don't know why I reacted how I did, maybe it was being the sole healer for an alliance of 8 constantly getting hit by slow, silence and gravity but that's how it is.

Call me a whiney little bitch but i've done what the title of this vent implies and vented.